The winds of fate...

It has been so long since the winds of life have blown my way and compelled me to sit and write. Tonight as I watched the sun say its last goodbye to that around us and the moon began its slow ascent into the night sky the calming wind of fate came to rest about me. surrounding me in a peace i haven't felt for such a long time. So much has passed by unnoticed since the winds have blown. I feel compelled to write briefly on what has happened. Some big some small non that matter much. For the past 6 months I have now been cured we have finally gotten my count up to where it should be and it is staying there. No more treatment, no more drugs, no more worrying what people will think, most of all no more fighting.. Physical my body is feeling better then it has in years. I am still amazed that I have been able to keep it from not only friends but family. Just goes to prove how much a mask can really hide. My relationship is still shaky at times and unnerving at others. But I am still so deeply in love with him that I cant imagine a day passing without him in my life. The ex is still there and up to the same old crap.. but other then that nothing huge has happened. Other then the winds have come back into my life..
As i sit here with the calming wind of fate blowing about i find a peace i thought had been lost. On a day when one would think i would be pulling my hair out i find nothing can get to me. The endless ringing of the phone the countless text messages don't seem to matter today. Its as though I now know what must be done and have excepted it. Its time for the mask to come off and to let others see what lies hidden. I guess in a way I have been doing that for some time with this blog. As the winds move about me I have been writing here in the raw. Not holding back and letting the real me out. Maybe that is why the winds are constantly changing... Who knows what the winds will send my way next but I know now I am ready for them. I now feel that with all I have been through I am strong enough to make it.. I am stronger then people know.. It is time to show that strength to people.. It is time to fly on the winds around and go where they may take me...

~~ A dream on the Wind ~~